Please Find Me When I Look Into Your Eyes

It was your eyes that caught my attention.  That grabbed me, and didn't let me go.  That still hold my thoughts. That I can not seem to forget.  But, I dont want to forget. 

If only they could see you, as I do - not as someone sexual - but as a person, as a human being, as a free spirit, maybe they would understand why I see you as a beautiful soul.

I am a shy person.  I am not loud or rude. I think about things way longer than I should.  And, I think of you.
If I could only watch you do mundane things, listen to you talk about what you think about, walk beside you in silence, as I learn of your world and what makes you come alive... then I would know of nirvana.

I do not know what weighs upon your heart. I do not know your soul.  Should I?  You are a mystery to me.
I only know you by sight, and a word spoken here and there. Why you fascinate me, I have not a clue.
But, knowing our worlds are so very different, keeps me at a distance.  I wish I could tell you how I feel.

But, I would rather be a mystery to you, than to bring distress to you.  I am only a face in the crowd. 

Find me.

She Envelops My Senses

By a still white ghostly light
I sit and write
of insequential thought and hightlights
wondering where you are tonight.

What peaks your thoughts at random
for my thoughts of you I cannot abandon
or over run
but for sure, I'm becoming undone.

There is no genesis
to make sense of this.
In a way to describe my growing bliss
is to experience the compete anthithesis,

Of feeling dead inside
of being denied
I'm in plain sight but I hide
On your horizon far and wide.

What becomes of this, I don't know
I'm just going with the flow
and let this river carry me
out to love's deep blue sea.

And then maybe
as I float supine
you will toss me
a life line.

But until then,
that's how I feel
Another rehearsal
for the day that it's real.

Telling The Walls

This wasnt in the cards
No one plans something this hard
It kind of just happened
Cant tell you how I feel

I think of you all the time
And you arent even mine
Not even a friend
This could be my end --

You touched my soul
Unknowing from afar
I cant deny it anymore
I want to be where you are
Its not going to happen
Too many things in the way
You won't hear me tell you
I love you today.

Its not about the drama
that we would go through
I have enough of my own
And you do too.

In the dark of the night
My thoughts I no longer fight
But its alright
You are my light.

You touched my soul
Unknowing from afar
I wont deny it anymore
I want to be where you are
Its not going to happen
Too many damn things in the way
You can't hear me tell you
I love you... today.

You Sit On My Right Shoulder

The only sound
Is the gentle pound
Of my heart.

Im sitting on the ground
Knowing that I have found
Something truly profound.

It is in my way
Every single day
Something I cannot hold
Yet, it makes me stay.

It is what I don't see
That brings me such bliss
I cannot explain this.

In this place you sit
Contemplate a bit
But by the way I act
You would never know it.

You are everywhere
I'm afraid to lay my soul bare
But, I cannot lie
You make me high.