Attraction

I can't help it if you weren't interested in me.
Nor can I help it, if I couldn't get close to you.
If it isn't in my heart
Or in my soul
It won't happen.




The same goes for you, I suppose.




Funny thing, this "attraction"
That causes all the joy and pain in life.


I wanted to be with you.
You ran.
You ignored.
You blocked.




I wondered.
I tried to understand.
I cried.




Just wasn't meant to be.




Just don't be surprised
When I don't want to talk to you
Or to hang around with you.




I had to get over the fact that I wasn't "your type".

Even though I had the qualities you wanted in a lover
I had to remind myself that the "attraction" wasn't there.



It isn't about being attractive.  But attraction.




I used to yell, "What bullshit is this?"
But now I understand.
And now I struggle with the fact that
I seem to not even qualify as friendship material.



This is where I draw the line
And just go where you are not.

Just Liz

I do things because I want to.
I do things to bring me joy.
While some of the things I do are for others,
What I do isn't necessarily for you.


I like doing things for others
And they seem to like it, too
But when the day comes you take it for granted
I walk away from you.


I want to still hang around with friends
It is hard when they start acting weird
I didn't do anything to make that so
I don't care I'm "feared".


I'm not mad or bitter
Because your read more into what it is.
I just feel bad for you
Because I am just being Liz.

My Crush's Body Double

I didn't write the words to the songs you sing.
It isn't important, or anything.
When I write I try to bring
My words to come forth, within my mental spring.


You can't save me
Because I'm not in trouble.
You can't save me
It isn't your place.
You couldn't save me
Unless you were my crush's body double.
You can't save me.
To only save face.


I did my best, and got nowhere.
I changed all that around.
I do my best now for me.
I think it's more fair.


Keep your memories of me
Stored away safe.
And I will be polite.
I might think of you sometime.
Until I do...


Goodnight.